I realized the other day that I’m in a very mellow state of mind. I don’t think I’m depressed or sad or angry or discontent. I think I’m just….zen, perhaps?
Life is changing in our household. We are preparing to move my 88 year old Grandmother into the house. She currently lives on her own and although she is still managing, it’s really time that she’s with people full time. Probably past time! She has suffered strokes in the past few years, made miraculous recoveries and has done very well. But her speech suffers when there’s no one to talk to. Her little legs are giving out on her and we all just think it would be best. She’s sad to leave her home yet is looking forward to coming to ours. And although it will definitely change our household, we’re looking forward to it, too.
My husband and son are doing a fantastic job closing up the living room by adding french doors. It will probably be another 3 weeks before all is done and she’ll be ready to move in.
With that said, another change will take place. Our 22 year old son, who is finishing college at a University close to home, will be moving into her house. He has come and gone a couple of times during his college career, but this will be the big forever move. He will move into her home to take care of 2 of her 3 animals. This will also help us to move at our own pace as far as emptying her house out. Then, when he gets married next year, he and his future wife will buy the house. Obviously, it’s time for him to move on. We’ve taught him well. He’s grounded. He’s smart. He’s responsible. But….life is changing. It’ll never be as it was and that’s what makes me sad. In less than a year, he’ll have a wife who will be his priority and no longer his Dad and I. We’re very close so I don’t expect him to disappear but just knowing that the change is coming has me mellowed out.
But then I trip over one of his shoes and realize….it’s going to be okay!